Friday, November 26, 2004

my movies

Ive had a good term this time. Not only have I got myself a summer job and a scholarship, Ive gone out quite a lot, managed to watch quite a few movies and read a couple of books too.

Grave of the Fireflies - Japanese anime. Lovely movie...the kind that stays with you long after you've watched it. I cried for hours after watching it. I still feel bad when I think of the movie. It is such a neatly made so lovely.

Spirited Away - Japanese anime again. Kinda wierd movie...doesnt make much sense but I guess its kinda fun to watch.

Onohide Poroporo - You guessed it right!! Jap anime once again. It means Only Yesterday. Another extremely nice movie. There were times when I could connect so well with the protagonist. A very sensitive, and also, sensible movie...somehow, the way the theme and the whole movie was dealt was perfect.

Tonari no Totoro - Another wierd movie. Not too great. And yeah- Japanese anime.

Lost in Transalation - Not a japanese movie. An American movie shot in Tokyo.And it was just a coincidence...i swear!! It is a sweet movie but a major disappointment coz I was looking forward to this for a long long time and it wasnt as great as I thought it would be.

Dr.Zhivago - Finally!! After a gazillion tries, I finally got to see this one. Its kinda nice.But painfully long.Again, it wasnt as good as the reviews it got.

Gharshana - Gult movie. I liked it. Slick movie. A Venkatesh who looked good and played a role that suited his age. Movie could have done with better editing but overall, one of the better Gult movies Ive seen in recent times.

Veer Zaara - Highly senti and higly silly. Big time romanctic...or atleast, that is what it is meant to be. Good music was the only redeeming factor. Otherwise, a movie worth missing.

8 movies in two and a half months. I think that was an awesome job!! And now I shall log off to go watch one more movie...

Warning: Im cribbing again

After sounding so senti in the last few posts, i thought id be back on track with some decent posts...but I seem in the mood for cribbo posts or no posts at all.
I feel like the guy in 'Catcher in the Rye' - I dont know why but for the life of me i can never ever remember what his name is. But right now, I feel like I can understand exactly how he feels. My whole life feels like a BIG BIG BIG mess. But I dont want to talk about that right now.
I feel I should announce it to one and all that I got myself (or should i say the Placement Committee here got me) a summers job at IBM. I asked to work in the HR field, much to most people's disbelief!! I will most probably be working in Bangalore and so staying on campus. Ive been told that we would be given laptops, have a 5 day week and not much work. So ive already started dreaming about those 3mnths - white water rafting and bungee jumping in Mysore, hopefully a visit to Masanigudi, another to Coimbatore, maybe even Ooty and all other places around. Its good to be in Bangalore in summer weatherwise...and finally, i could explore the city too. A couple of people I know will also be staying on campus so im thinking it should be lots of fun and am really looking forward to it.
There is something about writing...or even typing, basically, when you put thought on paper or somehow settles things in and makes you feel much more comfortable with the world around you.

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

life is a chocolate

I've been listening to 'Aint no sunshine' by Al Green since yesterday night. Ive become addicted to that song. I dont feel like listening to anything else. I dont like anything else I listen to.....
Today is Day Zero of the summers placement process. All the i-Banks are slotted today. Not surprisingly, I did not get any shortlists today.
Disppointed?? Certainly not. Im pretty sure I dont want to work in an i-bank. No, it is definitely not a case of soure grapes. Yes- I would have been delighted if I did get a shortlist and I would have been on top of the world if I got a final offer from one of these companies. It is not just a damn good paying job but an ibanker is one helluva sood thing to be. And people put in so much fight to get an ibank summers just because they might get a PPO- and then, for them, their life is made, so to say. But it isnt the kind of job I would like to do and im simply not cut out for something like that. And that is why im so cool about the whole thing.
In fact, i dont have any particular kind of job I would like to do, for the summers. I just want the experience of working somewhere.
Long term, yes, I know for sure I want to work in some place like CRY. An NGO. Where this sudden fondness for kids? Not really...I would like to work in any NGO which works for women or children.

Monday, November 01, 2004

...and then some

I dont care much for this one but this one is for Abhishek

Why am I crying, I want to know.
How can I smile and make it right?

I'm going back to the ones that I know,
with whom I can be what I want to be.
Just one week for the feeling to go --
and with you there to help me
then it probably will.

I won't go down
acting the same old play.
Don't think I'd make it: but then I might.

I wonder why most lyrics arent happy...


All credits to Abhishek:

When I look around, everybody else brings me down
Whether its them or me, well, I cant see
But there aint no peace to be found
But i fsomeone really cared, would take the time to spare...a moment to understand another one's despair...
remember in this game we call life, that no one said its fair

When I first came across this, I fell in love with this the time, it seemed to describe perfectly how i felt.Uncanny how someone else's words reflect what you think are your evry personal feelings.

Many a time Ive been mistaken and many times confused
and Ive often felt forsaken and certainly misused
And I dont know a soul who's not been battered,
I dont have a friend who feels at ease
and I dont know a dream thats not been shattered
or driven to its knees

Something on similar lines.I fell in love with these lyrics because I could empathise with the lines.Or maybe it was because I felt the lines could empathise with me.And they gave me so much comfort.I always feel so much better when I realise that someone at some point has felt the same way i did. It makes things okay somehow and i get the feeling that soon,ill be fine.
And thats what these songs did to me last year.I was losing hope, I was lonely and it wasnt a very nice way to be. and these line seemed to know exactly how i was feeling...i knew what these guys were talking about. and then i knew it was going to be okay...if someone else had gone thru the same uncertainities i had gone thru too, i knew it wasnt so bad after all and that soon things would b back to normal.
Everything always becomes allright after a while.

Talk to me softly
There's something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow
And please don't cry
I know how you feel inside
I've been there before
Somethin's changin' inside you
And don't you know

Give me a whisper
And give me a sigh
Give me a kiss before you tell me goodbye
Don't you take it so hard now
And please don't take it so bad

I keep thinking, this is probably what Abhishek would want me to listen to when im down and low.